"Stellar"

"Meet me in outer space.
WE could spend the night;
Watch the earth come up.
I've grown tired of that place;
Won't you caome with me?
WE could start again.
How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.
How do you do it?

It's better than I ever knew.
Meet me in outer space.
I will hold you close, if you're afraid of heights.
I need you to see this place, it might be the only way that I can show you how it feels to be inside of you."

Incubus, favorite band, by the way. okay, to start off.. I'm sorry for not posting lately, just haven't all.. Felt like it. not saying I was in a bad mood or anything, just that my heart wasn't quite up to it. But I'm back. My birthday was the 16th of December, I would be 15 now. I got my mother 50$ worth of art supplies for Christmas. Ken-san paid about half, as did I. That so half of the cash I had on me. I have twenty-two bucks now. My uncle owes me forty-one. ^_^ just got paid ten. >.> That makes me at an amazing.. 66$ Neat. Umm, okay. I've been all shifty in my moods, kinda weird. Not really in one mood long before someone sparks a different one. X.x Yeah, I lost the whole point of typing this, so I'll end my rambling. Ta!

"How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.
How do you do it?
It's better than I ever knew.
You are a stellar."

"Incomeplete"

"He's washing his face to start his day,
He's lonely, lonely, lonely,
Nothing in the mirror ever shows him what's within.

Now he's checking out the faces,
On the back of the milk,
He's sour under all this pressure,
He thiks the missing person looks an awful lot like him.

And he starts his engine,
but he knows that he's missing gears."

Switchfoot. I've been using Switchfoot only because it came in a three CD set, and it's what I've been picking up. Lol. I just skim through song titled until I find what seems to stand out for me, then I look over the lyrics and if they seem pretty good I post them. Simple really. I haven't even heard some of the songs in forever - But I have heard them, none-the-less. Way back then and whatnot. Finally, I'm in a good mood. It only took, you know.. a few weeks before I could honestly laugh and mean it. Although I was REALLY jumpy at church, I nearly died of a heart attack from jumping pretty badly playing ping pong, the ball hit the center of my chest, really hard. Those little ping pong balls really hurt, especially when they hit your forehead at a decent speed. It was a little akward since I let down one of my friends when he said he liked me, during the big church thing, he wouldn't speak to me and went all the way to the opposite side of the room, I felt pretty awful. After a while he played ping pong with me, and seemed to not be bothered about it anymore - Which is good. I can't wait to go up to Kansas. I get to finally see Snow, and meet up with my 'family' again. ^^ I already have one present for one of them, I just need.. Seven more. I'm going to the dollar store for those. = ) I can't afford seven more items like what I got Mousie. I spent about nine bucks while my little brother spent about seven, on the same gift. Mousie'll love what we got her. I'm posting pretty late, and I have no idea why. Just felt like posting I s'pose. Heh, well, it's great to be all giddy inside, to giggle for no reason and smile alot. I am unbelievably happy, and it feels great. Well, I'll be going now. Oh, and Salve does NOT mean Goodbye, it means Hello. ^^

"Incomeplete!
Where will you find yourself?
Incomeplete!
Where will you find yourself?
(Where will you lose yourself?)
'Cause you're the missing person now,
Step outside your doubt,
And let yourself be found!

He's sick of the race to just save face,
He's tied and tried, he's sick and tired,
He's tired of the holes that are keeping him incomplete.

He'll push the pedal to the floor,
Like the day before,
He's trying to be always trying,
Try to find an end to justify his means."

"Living is simple"

"Living is simple,
It's gravity,
Gravity isn't so hard,
Living is simple,
It's entropy,
Entropy, falling apart,
I'm falling apart again.

Living is simple,
And breathing is easy,
It's easy to do,
Living is simple,
And losing is easy.

I'm losing my cool,
I'm losing my cool again."

Switchfoot. My grades are rather low, I'm pretty much struggling to not fail the classes I want to keep. My schedule changes next semester as well. It's not that I am having trouble in the classes, it's just that I'm not doing homework. I know I should, but I don't have the will to do it as I used to, there's no flare. I could even be interested in the stuff and it would be the same. Finals are next week, 20% of my grade in each class. They shouldn't be that hard, only about 200 questions on each one. I study with the neighbor tomorrow. Because my grades are so low, they think something's wrong with me, emotionally. The neighbor told me I was hiding something and that I should tell someone. Okay, maybe I am hiding something, something is wrong to. Btu sadly enough. I don't know what it is. I should be happy, I'm in better conditions than before. Yet for some reason the only reason I can be happy is to bluff. Call a fake of the cards, fake it. Whatever term I must use, I just want to know what ti is that is eating away at me. The neighbor will probably try to get something out of me. she also said I could change schools if I wanted to. But I'm not going to, I have made a few freinds I would rather not leave. Well, there goes my ranting for the day. Oh, and I don't tend to open up and ask many people about things, only because I happen to be the one always asked while no one will listen to what I have to say. Ciao.

" ' All will be made well,
Will be made well,
Will be made well,
Will be well.'

Is this fiction?
Is this fiction?
Hope has given himself to the worst,
Is this fiction or divine comedy?
Where the last of the last finish first,
Living is simple.

Living is dying,
Your mercy, Your mercy,
Is how I believe,
Living is dying,
I can't understand it,
I'm down on my knees,
Confessing my needs again.

I've had my choices,
I've chosen today,
I've had my choices,
The choices remain."

"Burnout"

"I declare I don't care no more,
I'm burning up and out and growing bored,
In my smoked out boring room,
My hair is shagging in my eyes,
Dragging my feet to hit the street tonight,
To drive allong these shit town lights,
I'm not growing up,
I'm just burning out,
And I stepped in line to walk amongst the dead."

Greenday. Bleh, my mood's still all of n' such, the only thing is I'm tired of it. I was home, sick yesterday. So I'm a bit behind in my classes already. I think I'm going to be kicked out og Pre-Ap Biology - My favorite class. Might fail Latin. And who knows what else. My luck's seemed to have run out. Only so long will I smile and nod before getting frustrated. A self-destruction sequency I guess. Who knows. I'm tired, have homework and am not exactly the happiest camper of them all. Whatever. Seeya.

"Apathy has rained on me,
Now I'm feeling like a soggy dream,
So close to drowning but I don't mind,
I've lived in this mental cave,
Throw emotions in the grave,
Hell, who needs them anyway."

A wonderful end to a horrible week.

My week wasn't good for me. Hence why I haven't posed in a while. I haven't really been in the mood. But only so long can you stand to be pushed around in hallways, late to every class and be the one to apologize. Monday I was late to school. My uncle took forever to figure out he didn't have cash on him, then had to find a lost ATM card, we had to stop[ somewheer for him to get money, then I had to go out in the cold and buy something to get change, and I was late to my first period of class. I was late to every class that day. Next day my mood was horrible and up to today I nearly went to tears from being frustrated. Today I wasn't feeling well, but went to school anyway. In Gym I had to play basketball, but from playing my head hurt soo much my ears were painfully hurting, my vision was very blureed and I couldn't breathe properly. I might have some kind of asthma, sine I feel the worst at Gym. After gym my head still hurt, then my stomach, and after that I was very tired. But at the comepletely end of the day I was feeling better and was pretty much energized. I'm happy to just be able to relax. although for the weekend I have nothing to look forward for, same goes for the week. Wll, that's the end of my complaining for now. but I happen to have figured out how much I like Biology class. It really peaks my interest soo much, it's kind of funny. I thought English was my favorite, but I like boilogy much more. It just interests me. Well, I'm out.